Like probably almost anyone reading this blog, I'm a sysadmin. Specifically, I consider myself to be a pretty darned good one - years of experience, blah blah blah. One of the personality traits a "good sysadmin" has, is the drive and ability to learn new things. COMPLICATED things. No fear. Try out installing and setting up high-availability linux clusters without ever having done it before, try implementing SSL in apache, etc-- you just roll up your sleeves and go. You'll stumble, but you'll LEARN. And you become a rockin' sysadmin in the end because of it.

Lately, I have been wrestling with being able to do that any more. Specifically, the office in which I work has been reclassified as a "service center" of sorts. We have tons of campus customers, and we now charge back for our time. Which means *I* have to charge back for my time. It's a result of the current economic situation, everyone needs to do what they can to survive.

The bottom line is, I am now primarily paid to simply "do", and "do quickly". I am no longer paid to "first figure it out really well first, then implement when it's 100%". There is no longer any part of my job where I am paid to learn- to improve myself, to improve my skills. And that's a crime.

"Do, or do not. There is no try".

Just call me Yoda.